Thursday, February 28, 2013

A Letter to my baby on his first birthday

Dear Seamus,

Every day that God gives me with you is special. The journey from wanting a second child, to having you was so very long. At times I didn't think I was strong enough for the path that God laid before me. However, my strength did not matter, It was the Lords strength that carried me through it all.

I remember the day I learned that you were growing inside of me, I remember being excited and a little nervous. There was no way of knowing if God meant for me to know you here, or if I would have to wait until heaven to know your face. I waited anxiously each week for my prenatal appointments, and was so relieved when I saw you on ultrasound and your beautiful heart beating. I watched you grow so closely, and I prayed that God would make you strong and healthy. It was amazing to see how quickly you developed into a perfect little baby. I couldn't believe it!

And then you were born! Here at last, in my arms. I could study your face, and kiss your fingers and toes. My hopes and dreams were realized, my arms no longer ached for a baby because you were where you were meant to be. I was complete.

Seamus I am so thankful for you. I'm not sure if you will ever realize what a gift you are to me. I am sure you will someday be sick of hearing just how much I love you, and how long I prayed for you, but I will never stop telling you and praising God for the blessing that you are.

You have changed so much this past year. It has been a complete joy to watch you grow and become our littlest man. I love how your face lights up when I walk in the room, and how you love to snuggle. You love to be with your brother, and you love to follow Issy and play in her water bowl. You are interested in everything, but mostly food. I love that you are willing to try any food. You are the sweetest most loving little boy, and I am so thankful that God made you mine.

Happy First Birthday Sweet Baby Seamus! I love you more than words can tell.